I don't want to loose youu :'(

again i story about you dear , gosh ! i'm really fucking miss this boy , its hard to me forget you . i just need you in my life that only i want from you , i couldn't lie my heart anymore , i'm in love with you since i know you . then i think you also know about my heart . but when i say about relationship you will say , that you not ready yet to couple , its okayyy , i will waiting for you until you accept me in your life , but you alraedy change now ??? you not like i know you before , that make my heart hurt . you know what , everyday i thinking about you and every second i will see your picture , every minutes i will think about you and i will never and ever forget you . and one thing i want you to know something , if i die today , i want you to know that i love you as my husband not as frendss , although we are not in relationship but i feel that you are the best for me and i only want you in my life and i will wait for you until you get ready . i just want you and everyday i need you in my life and your name will never be replaced in my heart . lot's of love Kechik :-*